I used to look in the mirror and all I saw was about me. What image did I want and what did others see in me? But now when I look I’m starting to see that what matters is God’s Truth reflecting back at me.
I remember so clearly being in 8th grade, standing in the “smoker girls” bathroom looking at myself in the full length mirror and thinking how unattractive I was. I had no curves except the curve of my spine from scoliosis. I thought I was alone but I wasn’t; out of a stall walked one of the smokers; Janet Baker. She looked at me briefly standing there and said, “You don’t have to look. You know you’re pretty” and walked out.
From that moment on all she wanted to do that year was beat me up behind the bleachers at football games. It was a miserable year but by 9th grade the theatre, other friends and Jesus helped me out. The sad thing is neither Janet nor I could see ourselves through Ephesians 2:10 — we are God’s workmanship and God doesn’t make junk.
As I grew in my relationship with Jesus, spending time reading what He had to say to me, I started to trust Him. I now believe He is thinking about me constantly. He loves me so much. He thinks I’m perfectly formed and I’m not a mistake. Plus He has a super incredible plan for my life. Religion did not fill this empty void in my life. My relationship with Jesus did.
Christ never changes but I have. It’s a daily decision though. Will I believe what I feel and see in my circumstances or will I trust what He promises me? From Romans 8:28 do I KNOW ALL things will work together for the good because I love and accept Him and He loves me and has a good plan for my life? I strive to…everyday.
Copyright 2015 Debbie Griffth